Hey everyone! So let’s get straight to it. We are halfway through 2018 and the 28th year of my life is quickly approaching! Bittersweet because I know 30 is right around the corner but I am totally convinced that those years will be the best years of my life. I mean the 20’s are hella confusing and demanding in more ways than one. Nonetheless, I recently came up with a bucket list for myself to complete before I turn 30 as a way to keep myself happy, keep the same adventurous and curious side of my twenties as I make the transition and to start living instead of wishing. So without further adeu, here is my 30 before 30 bucket list!
Guilty. As. Charged.
So as some of you may know, I have been going through it lately. Yet, whenever I am weathering a storm, I find it difficult not to think that I am being challenged to look deeper by some ultimate force in the Universe. So here I am am. Slowing down. Calling myself out on my bullshit and opening up my mind to the thoughts and feelings that I have been trying to cloud with work, children and cute little Snapchat post to keep me busy. With a little introspection, I have found that a large part of my delays in success have come from self sabotage in the form of instant gratification.
Originally posted on illicitvoodoo:
Dear heart, I’m so sorry for letting you down once again I apologize for putting other people’s hearts before you I’m sorry for all the times I allowed you to die…
You see, sometimes my husband and I give each other these pep-talks. Sprinkle of brutal honesty here, love in the middle, sprinkle of advice and wrap it all up in a bow. Like any other gift, if you choose to use it, amazing. If not – sorry there’s no gift receipt….
I learned this lesson the hard way at 23 years old. Up until then, this right here, has not always been my strong suit. Don’t get me wrong, I am sincerely grateful for all things in my life (additions and subtraction alike) but because I have been through so much to get to this point, I have to say that I have found it hard navigating my 20’s and actually wanting to ask or accept the help of others. Maybe fear has instilled this in me. Fear of others wanting something in return or throwing all that they have done in my face in the past. There are even those that will claim my successes as their own.
Hey everyone! It’s been a few days and yep, I’m still hella pregnant with twins and the exhausted, working mommy of a now 2 year old. Bed rest starts next week and I have to admit my excitement is through the roof!
Let me start off by saying, I am super graced by all that has been given and taken away from me. Even when I did not realize the importance of the addition and or subtraction in the beginning, I am learning that those moments of confusion lead to some of the biggest lessons I have learned in my 27 years of life…