I love my babies so much. They are seriously everything. The twins are 7 months old and Gabe is slowly approaching 3 years old in February. Why am I just now losing my shit?!
Man this is out of control! Trouble in paradise? No. Lost my best friend? Not quite? Super social? Ehh, not really. Happy? No. Everyone around me is just fine. Yet I find MYSELF slipping away every minute that I try to make sure that everyone else is okay. I have been thinking of a way to write about this without feeling vulnerable but I mean thats what this is right? So here it is. I am completely losing who I am and who I imagined that I would be at this time in my life, completely in and to my my relationships with others. Maybe it is a sign from the universe that something has to change but one thing for sure is that it does not serve me nor anyone around me any good for it to happen.
I realized that I wouldn’t be the only one grieving this holiday season. And while you always hear that everyone grieves differently – how can we get through this time of year where everything is so festive, merry and bright but we’re hurting?