Hey there! I’m back! I’m back! I’m back! It’s been a long few months away from you all and writing. Please trust it did not happen without reason. For those following for a while, you […]
Guilty. As. Charged.
So as some of you may know, I have been going through it lately. Yet, whenever I am weathering a storm, I find it difficult not to think that I am being challenged to look deeper by some ultimate force in the Universe. So here I am am. Slowing down. Calling myself out on my bullshit and opening up my mind to the thoughts and feelings that I have been trying to cloud with work, children and cute little Snapchat post to keep me busy. With a little introspection, I have found that a large part of my delays in success have come from self sabotage in the form of instant gratification.
Hey everyone! I got a few questions in my email about my day to day emotions after the babies were born and how I deal with everything that comes at me. I truthfully don’t even know how I am doing any of this! Everything is such a big blur and while my day basically fluctuates between working out, reading, cooking and writing – I simultaneously find myself double breastfeeding, getting peed on and laughed at, trying to catch spit up before it hits the carpet and trying to actually be human; you know, change my human setting that allows me to actual feel? LOL
With that, I really sat and made a list of the top activities I engage in that allow me to feel without going to extremes like jumping out of planes and shit…
Find your happy place. I encourage you.
Whoops! I made a big mistake and opened up far more than I was sure I was comfortable with via conversation. I mean, I have spoken before about becoming more transparent through writing and I felt as if I wanted this to translate better into my real life relationships. Because actual friends were few and far in between throughout my life, I found myself handling most of what life was throwing at me alone.
Hey everyone! So let’s get straight to it. We are halfway through 2018 and the 28th year of my life is quickly approaching! Bittersweet because I know 30 is right around the corner but I am totally convinced that those years will be the best years of my life. I mean the 20’s are hella confusing and demanding in more ways than one. Nonetheless, I recently came up with a bucket list for myself to complete before I turn 30 as a way to keep myself happy, keep the same adventurous and curious side of my twenties as I make the transition and to start living instead of wishing. So without further adeu, here is my 30 before 30 bucket list!
Man this is out of control! Trouble in paradise? No. Lost my best friend? Not quite? Super social? Ehh, not really. Happy? No. Everyone around me is just fine. Yet I find MYSELF slipping away every minute that I try to make sure that everyone else is okay. I have been thinking of a way to write about this without feeling vulnerable but I mean thats what this is right? So here it is. I am completely losing who I am and who I imagined that I would be at this time in my life, completely in and to my my relationships with others. Maybe it is a sign from the universe that something has to change but one thing for sure is that it does not serve me nor anyone around me any good for it to happen.